Coming from Scandinavia, the cold place of "no emotions", the end of this exchange have been a bit overwhelming. I'm used to being in some sort of control of my emotions. Nevertheless at the moment it feels like I've been having premenstrual syndrom for weeks (haha). One moment I'm super happy, then all of the sudden I just want to cry. It's very annoying. I do a lot to avoid being sad and as I've mentioned before, I'm not known for being the one sobbing. Although I don't particullary enjoy this emotional rollercoaster, there is a lesson to be learned. A lot of people tend to ignore negative feelings, hoping that they will dissapear. The fact is that most of the time they won't. Sooner than later, they'll all come back, hitting you in the face. That's when it hurts. I believe it's healthier to allow yourself to be sad and down and then let go, rather than blocking it. For instance, my departure is in less than a week. Denial will unfortunately not make time stop. |
They say: "Every sixty seconds spent sad is a moment of happiness you can never take back," and I kind of agree. Yet, I think it's better to face the fact that we are leaving and that it is and will be sad. Rather than pretending that we have forever. Like my mom said, I can't live in this bubble for the rest of my life. I know that the day I'm leaving will not feel okay, but it will, eventually. It's okay to admit that it's not. However, I am extremely excited to go home and I know that the sad tears will turn into happy in the moment I get reunited with my family.
By the way, this post have no negative intentions and I'm perfectly content right now :)
By the way, this post have no negative intentions and I'm perfectly content right now :)